Things worsen, when two individual (who doesn’t know each other, one of them were our mutual friend) telling me that my bf is cheating on me and asked me to break up with him. The mutual friend is having some misunderstanding perhaps on my bf. I have explanations on what he had told me, about my bf was with another girl. I think I know about that incident. That girl was actually my bf’s sister (unless my bf is lying to me about this). Another one which till today I can’t find a proper explanation why she want to say these to me. A girl who has been good friend of my bf suddenly told me that my bf and her had a thing together, and that my bf is willing to accept her and her child (she is a single mum). According to her that my bf has no longer have the heart to love me anymore, but he just doesn’t know how to say it to me. Perhaps both of them don’t have faith to be together, but she really loves him. Asked me to break up with my bf.
When I first heard I was a little mad. As I hated cheaters. My bf very well knows about this, especially what I have been through with all my exs. I was still calm, but it trouble me at night thinking about it. The more I thought, the more it doesn’t make sense to me. My bf isn’t entirely stupid. Why would he want to have an affair with someone who is so far away from him (She is in Borneo while my bf and I are in the Peninsular) and already have a son (it would explain better if that son was his). Whatever reason I think of, I still can’t figure out why she wanna say such thing to me.
I decided to do a little check up on her and my bf. I noticed that my bf has stopped talking to her for quite some time. Since then, she has been messaging me and our friends about my bf, posting to be a friend of his and wanted to say hi. Backtracking her messages with my bf, I got to know that she already long time knew about me and that I was in relationship with my bf way before I thought she knew it from me (because I told her when she asked if I was dating him just a day before she told me about their ‘affair’). Lots of questions that I would like to ask.
So finally I met up with my bf, and confronted him. I didn’t jump straight to the questions I wanted to ask, but instead asking him why isn’t he in speaking terms with the gal since they are good friends. Apparently the gal was asking way too much personal questions about me and our relationship, my bf got angry with her. He doesn’t want to talk to her anymore, unless is just normal chatting. Then, I told him that someone had a crush on him, which surprises him. Slowly I let out the conversations I had with the gal and the accusation of the affair, I choose not to believe, but still I would like to know if it is true, and if he wanted to break up with me. My bf just felt weird why the gal would say such thing to me, and want to ruin our relationship. He admit himself that he would be real stupid to have an affair with someone he hasn’t met before and being so far away, while I’m just next to him.
If my bf wanted to break up with me, he has plenty of chances to do so, for I am easy to speak to if he wants to let out what’s in his mind. He said it before, and I could accept it. We had this conversation before, if shall we find we are not suitable for each other I am alright to let him go. As far as I see, I do know he still loves me.
Till now, I still can’t understand why one would wanna say such a thing to hurt me. Or, were there things between them?
Guess I have to dig further to find out why……
Hm… sometimes I wish I were more of a dumb blonde, so I wouldn’t be so sensitive on some issues, picking up feelings from my six-sense (especially things that will go wrong) is too strong to deny. At times, things are better NOT knowing than finding out the truth.
Perhaps, I do not need the truth… I just need to learn to trust….
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